12 more weeks! and i'll have a little Dante to take care of. i'm pretty sure i'm ready to pop him out its killing me inside. literally? OK IT HURTS TO LAUGH. my organs are being shoved up into my ribcage and they squish my lungs so if i laugh too much it hurts dammit. not cool. bought some baby clothes from spencers - not the stupid fuckin ones that say nasty shit about cum stains and tits - that are just TOO cute. being from spencers, they have a cute little skull theme. skull themed little shews, a skull themed onesie (it looks HUGE i hope it fits.), and skull themed little socks >x3 WAY CUTE. ....enough about babies, dont make me any more anxious than i already am!

...so i friggin spent an entire month torturing myself, trying to draw up a picture for a contest on Aarinfantasy. the contest awarded 2 million points for first prize, and 10,000 JUST for entering! but, i have this thing where, if i have a time period in which to meet my goal, i can't fuckin do it. but only if its art related! i can do things at work no problem, but shit, ask me to draw you a picture and i feel put on the spot and can't muster up the motivation to do it. i ALMOST had something drawn out for this contest, and as god would have it, my computer broke down about 3 days before the contest's deadline. we were surfing the web looking for some Zidane x Kuja pics, and the shit just stopped working. the internet stopped abruptly, then the computer stopped functioning altogether after about a day and half. soooooo at least i had an excuse for not ponying up. of course, the computer was fixed about 2 days after the contest was over, and there was suddenly a crack in my artist's block and i started drawing again. i just THOUGHT something up and almost immediately was able to whip that shit up on paper. of course even though i've got the best idea for a storyline, i wont get past the whole character drawing phase. i cant ever flesh shit out..... i suck lol. but i'll post the artwork i do get done on here anyway, i rarely draw these days (who the hell has the time between work, sleeping, and gaming?) so when i do i try to post it up... not that i have like 50,000 watchers waiting for my work or anything -_-;;

I quit FFXI the other day. i really did. i cancelled my characters and uninstalled it. i dont ever plan to go back either... its gone to complete shit. i WAS excited about FFXIV but fuck that. if they can't produce a male mithra for this upcoming mmo, they can forget about me buying it. i'm tired of the sexism in games, i get enough of it in movies and books and everday life in general. Square Enix does a fan-fucking-tastic job of creating some HIGHLY attractive men, but everyone draws the line somewhere. Apparently SE draws it at sexy cat boys. they can make slutty ass cat girls that wear practically nothing and prance around making men drool, but they cant make a (non-npc) cat boy for the girls to look at! I know some guys who'd play a male mithra too its not just for girls. Lekho Habhoka was a pretty cute male mithra but that's a crock of fucking shit that he was the ONLY male mithra in FFXI. I want to PLAY one, not just glimpse one in a short side storyline! Square Enix just pisses me off in general....

I looked at my debit card bill the other day and they were charging me $1 for something. I assumed it was an un deleted content ID, but when i contacted a GM they said it was an un cancelled Mail Forwarding service. i'm like.... wtf? i never signed up for this shit. APPARENTLY, i DID sign up for it though. In October of 2006. Excuse me? i did NOT sign up for it for one, and for fuckin two, i have NOT recieved any forwarded mail. EVER. ...AT ALL. so, apparently, since october of 2006, SE has been charging me $1 a month for an unprovided service. The GM i talked to argued that i did in fact sign up for it, and that its NOT an unprovided service. I got pretty pissed considering MY definition of an "unprovided service" would be a service not fucking being provided! The service was supposed to forward my POL mail to an alternate email address so i didnt have to log into POL to check the shit they sent me. Okay assholes, first of all, i DID have to sign in just to look at my mail for the ENTIRE three years i played. not ONCE did i recieve my POL mail through another email account. So i'd been fuckin payin em for 3 years for something they werent doing. thanks guys, i buy almost every single game you release, and worship you as the god of game companies, and this is how you repay me? fuck you. and hell no i cant get a refund. that would be too conveniant wouldnt it? i've almost completely lost my faith in video games. and video game systems (i'm lookin at YOU xbox360, you piece of shit).

Anypoo, enough ranting for the night. gonna try and go finish off my picture i'm working on and get it on here tomorrow....ish.